lightbearinglord: (can i help you)
It has been a strange handful of weeks, but Lan Wangji can accept strange far more easily than he could accept the pain that rippled inexorably outward from Shen Yuan's death, seeming to leave no one untouched. The parade of visitors was unusual, and thought-provoking, but not painful. Lan Wangji enjoyed meeting most of them. Even Galahad, whose empty politeness made him feel hollow in turn -- there was a quiet satisfaction in bringing him to the rabbits and watching his stunned expression at the simple joy of holding something small and vulnerable and trusting.

As for himself, the memories are so abstract as to be incomprehensible. There is something there, enough something to assure him that Aornis had no hand in this specific strangeness. But he can barely grasp at the details. He remembers embracing Magnus, but that signifies nothing out of the ordinary. He remembers sparring with Gideon; he remembers that he needs to ask Sagramore for fresh poetry. He remembers the loss of Wei Ying, newer and crueler than it typically is these days, but when he came back to himself the next morning, Wei Ying was there, his head tucked beneath Lan Wangji's chin and his ankle hooked around Lan Wangji's hip.

The least enjoyable of his encounters, at the least, provided him with something important. He has not removed the locket from his qiankun pouch. He wants to waste no time in bringing it to its intended recipient. He performs the first of his morning routines -- his meditation, his patrol, Wei Ying's breakfast -- and then goes to look for Magnus at the camp.
lightbearinglord: (twin jade)
Lan Wangji would like to see his husband. The adult version of him, the one that looks like Mo Xuanyu and remembers their elopement and bears bruises in the shape of Lan Wangji's fingers on his hips and thighs.

Nearly all of the time, Lan Wangji is a man who knows his own feelings. And yet he is unsure how he feels about the glimpse of Wei Ying's adolescent self. That smile is the smile that struck him at the knees, only once, and sent him kneeling in wait of its beautiful bearer for twenty years. He kissed that mouth, only once, as a coward without self-control. Perhaps he regrets not stealing a dozen more kisses before the madness passed. He couldn't say.

Wei Ying will return to their bedchamber in time. Lan Wangji waits, incense burning. He has washed and oiled his hair, leaving it loose around his shoulders to dry, and he sits cross-legged on their shared bed in a single thin white underrobe. Wei Ying will appear soon.

This post is backdated a bit to immediately after the October mod plot.

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