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The morning after the dance¹ sees Lan Wangji in one of the better moods that has visited him in quite some time. Wei Ying was happy last night: truly happy, the kind of happiness that chases all the ghosts out of his head. It is so much better to see than the false smile that graced his face for several days following their confrontation with Jiang Wanyin.

Lan Wangji, content and light of heart for once, has found a small parlor not far off the entryway of the mansion, and he is sitting cross-legged on a floor cushion, hair down, with his qin laid out on a low table before him as he strums a few thoughtful chords. It has been some time since Lan Wangji composed something, but there was so much unfamiliar music the night prior. It has made him want to begin again.

Now, surely nothing could possibly improve his mood even more at a time like this. And surely everyone in the mansion had an equally romantic and enjoyable evening.

¹Time is a flat circle. No further questions.

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"Ah, he's here." Claudius's voice comes from the doorway in a gentler hush than usual, and for good reason. With cradling, careful arms, he carries a pair of rabbits -- one white, one brown, the both of them admirably calm, but likely to be disturbed if Claudius starts talking in brisk exclamations. He isn't, however, talking to them, but to someone down the hall. "That's the sound of his spiritual instrument -- that means we're in luck, Crowley. You still have to hear him play -- hello, Lan Wangji." He turns to properly face his other friend and smiles.

Crowley's grumpy post-dance mood has been boosted slightly by the rabbits -- but whose wouldn't be? He's always secretly had a greater affinity for all creatures great and small than Aziraphale¹, even though he does bully the occasional duck. On the long walk over, he's been in the role of the rabbit secret service, opening doors and carefully holding them open so that the rabbits aren't jostled.

"Hey," he says, nodding at Lan Wangji. He was most likely bullied into this, a fair trade for the drink he had promised Claudius for leaving the dance so early and abruptly.

¹Except horses.

Lan Wangji is standing already when he hears Claudius' voice, out of respect for him. Something has come unraveled in him after seeing Lan Xichen and then Gertrude in quick succession, and the easy joy of the wedding dance, because he experiences a fleeting but distinct urge to embrace Claudius, too. That is simple enough to set aside, however, when he sees what Claudius is holding.

His whole face goes slack with soft, middlingly-contained delight. He darts a quick glance at Crowley, as if he could somehow be responsible for this, but it doesn't matter. With great care, he steps out from behind the table that holds his qin so that he may come closer to inspect the rabbits. They appear quite comfortable with Claudius, so he refrains from touching them; this feat of self-control has to be accomplished by linking his hands behind his back.

"Lan Wangji, I made a promise to thee," Claudius says with solemnity, belied slightly by the soft twitch of a smile. "Thou may'st not remember it, but to me it was strong. If there were ever rabbits in the mansion, thou wouldst be the first man I'd tell. They only needed rest last night during the dance¹, and soon as they roused this morning, I bade Crowley help me bring them to thee."

¹ You may be asking yourself: Aziraphale conjured the rabbits immediately after the last mansion event, so is this a joke, a lie, or is time a flat circle? Time's a flat circle, of course. Claudius would never lie.

"Seems like a fair trade. Two rabbits for spicy stir-fried pork," Crowley adds, dryly. He's at least going to give Aziraphale the credit for the rabbits themselves.

At that, Lan Wangji looks, again, at Crowley. "Aziraphale," he says with understanding. He has seen Crowley conjuring items from thin air. It stands to reason that a celestial being might be able to do the same with animals.¹ Obviously, he did not tell Crowley to take the food for Aziraphale with any expectation of receiving something in return, but watching as the brown rabbit flicks an ear and twitches its unfathomably tiny nose, he finds it difficult to object to this outcome.

Then, almost painfully solemn and earnest, he turns back to Claudius and asks, "May I hold them?"

¹He would be so dismayed if he knew these rabbits began their existences stuffed into a prop hat.

"I would like nothing better. And I've no doubt they'll also politely acquiesce." They are, after all, Claudius's children who he's raised with positive reinforcement ever since Aziraphale conjured them into existence.

Now that the attention is on the rabbits, Crowley leans (well, slouches) against one of the walls and watches Claudius carefully hand them over.

Now that permission has been granted, Lan Wangji draws his hands out from behind his back. He takes the white rabbit first, because it reminds him the most keenly of the Cloud Recesses rabbits and because it looks slightly more nervous. He is surpassingly careful to support its spine and hind legs as he settles it into the crook of his arm; the same goes for the brown rabbit, which he settles gently next to its companion. Throughout this process, his expression remains deeply serious, but it's the seriousness of attentive care and no indication that his happiness has waned. "Have you named them?"

"I thought thou shouldst have that honor," Claudius says, with more of that play-solemnity -- but his smile has widened enough now to demonstrate his full delight. "I' faith, I wished to hear what names thou wouldst give them."

Lan Wangji looks up to catch that smile, his own eyes alight in answer. With both rabbits cradled against his chest with one arm, his other hand is free to, very gently, stroke the impossibly soft space just between their ears. The brown rabbit begins chewing on the stray ends of his hair; patiently, he tells it, "Do not do that," and tugs the hair out of its mouth to flick it over his shoulder to safety.

In fact, he is so content, and so grateful to Claudius, that not even Crowley's presence or its appallingly bad posture can deter him from an offering of his own: "Keeping pets is forbidden at the Cloud Recesses, but my first two rabbits were a gift from Wei Ying¹." Looking faintly amused at his own past infatuation, as if any of his feelings have changed in their intensity, he says, "I named them Wei Ying and Lan Zhan. For these two, I will think more deeply."

¹Technically true, but not really an accurate depiction of the circumstances of their acquisition.

Claudius has already perceived what he believes to be marks of an exploratory, curious personality in the brown rabbit, so he's not surprised to see it testing its environs and chewing on tempting pieces of hair. He's so proud it's respecting boundaries gently set! Parenting truly is so rewarding.

"Fine, commemorative names," Claudius laughs. "Though I can well imagine Wei Wuxian teasing thee for thy originality. Such sweet creatures should be spoken to with fond names ... and I hear thy fondness, for little Wei Ying and little Lan Zhan, first gifts of thy youthful misadventures. Dost see, Crowley, how fondly a misadventure can be remembered, how romantic remembrance makes it?" He did resolve not to over-meddle, to let Crowley make his own mistakes, but this isn't meddling. It's just heartening conversation¹.

¹ He also never said he would stop meddling.

"Hm?" Crowley asks, snapping his head up from where he's been lurking¹. "Sure, yeah, the rabbits are cute."

¹One of the few standard demonic activities he excels at.

Lan Wangji narrows his eyes the slightest bit at Crowley. At the wedding dance, he paid very little attention to anything aside from Wei Ying's singular beauty, but he was occasionally drawn into other conversations and pursuits, and he does seem, now, to recall that he saw Aziraphale flitting about the room without Crowley in evidence.

"Aziraphale," he says again, looking first at Crowley, and then at Claudius, with the most infinitesimal quirk of a meaningful eyebrow. Meanwhile, he strokes the white rabbit's ears in an effort to soothe its nerves.

Claudius sighs, rather grateful for Lan Wangji's insight -- both rabbits are relatively calm, but the white rabbit does need the most soothing. Also: Crowley.

"Aziraphale may also come to reflect on the past with romantic fondness. Nothing's as hopeless as Crowley believes. And Crowley, I will note, Aziraphale would never have conjured a single rabbit for me if you weren't present. He certainly wouldn't have conjured two."

Crowley sighs. "It's because we're used to doing favors for each other. He performs a temptation, I perform a minor miracle. I provide the wine, he tells a silly but ultimately entertaining story-- and he likes it when I listen to what he tells me to do," he adds, a little sullenly. "When he looked at me, his expression said Crowley, whatever you do, do not make me summon a nigh-unimaginable amount of rabbits. I had to go along with it."

Crowley is not helping his point or any point. We're not even sure why he's telling Claudius all of this.¹

¹And that's not even in the footnotes.

This description of devotion softens Lan Wangji's face anew. It is surprisingly familiar: I provide the wine, he tells a silly but ultimately entertaining story. He, too, would do nearly anything that Wei Ying asked of him. He hid bottles of Emperor's Smile under the floorboards of the jingshi for years for the hypothetical enjoyment of a dead man.

"You love him," he says, as if in agreement with some point that Crowley has made. Perhaps he is being overly blunt, but what is the use in dancing around this?

Claudius is also pinning him with a Look, so there's no escaping the statement. Crowley desperately wishes he had an emotional support rabbit of his own right now.

He nods, a nod that's simultaneously both solemn and awkward. "For a long time," he confirms quietly. "There's just been so much-- stuff in the way of it that I didn't realize until now."

Unfortunately for poor Crowley, the weight of Lan Wangji's gaze on him is quite heavy just now. It may, at least, help with the utter solemnity of his demeanor that he is now using one finger to pet the brown rabbit's cheek. "It was the same for Wei Ying."

"I presume thou mean'st the man," teases Claudius, "not the rabbit he gave thee." He smiles, and it's full of its own fondness -- Lan Wangji's romantic stories¹ always move him. "No doubt he told himself, like a demon tempting an angel, that he was only encouraging thee to break the rules of thy sect ... but looking back and reminiscing, he'd given thee a sweet and loving gift. You were like that, Crowley. You told me about the kindnesses you'd done for Aziraphale, with such casual disavowals -- the same way you talk about exchanging favors, as if favors can't also be romantic gestures²."

¹ Even if those are stories are one sentence.
² It's kind of like when you have a crush on a guy, and then you meet him as a kid, and he's so cute you want to make him a plate of crispels. And then things are weird for a while, but you clear the air while under the influence of a truth spell, and later at the wedding dance you arranged for him and his husband, his husband points out you're in love. And then you think back and realize the plate of crispels was a romantic gesture. This is just a random example.

"Sure, maybe on my part, and maybe I see that now, but--" Crowley gestures, a mildly helpless one. For some reason, it suddenly all feels so overwhelming. "Remember when I took that nap for a week? I think I need to do that now. Except I just need to just sit and think for a week."

A little frown pinches Lan Wangji's brow. He pets the white rabbit's cheek as well, in order to remain equitable with his affections, as he says, measured, "Meditation can be helpful." Still, he tosses a glance of concern at Claudius about the matter.

"I have heard good things about meditation," Claudius says, in light-heartedly helpful tones that belie the equally concerned look he gives Lan Wangji. "But you know, the inclination to sit for weeks on end and think can also be a sign of melancholia. Is this a purposeful, meditative sort of thinking, or is it more like brooding?" Was Crowley just 'taking a nap because he was bored' during most of the 19th century, or did something make him melancholy? These are questions Claudius worries about.

Crowley completely and absolutely misses these looks of concern. "No no, it's just... there's thousands of years of history. It's all jostled in my head along with endless memories of--" He gestures vaguely towards the ceiling, the sky. "It takes a while to sift through all of it. A week for me is like... like if a human sat and thought and, er, I don't know, blogged or whatever they do for half an hour."

Whatever blogging is, this explanation does little to alleviate Lan Wangji's apprehension about Crowley's wellbeing. He can hardly claim to understand thousands of years of history, nor would he pretend to, but he believes he understands something like the mortal equivalent of such a thing. "After the events surrounding Wei Ying's death," he offers, keeping his voice even, "I required three years in seclusion."

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